im so down

i am so down. what should i do? what kind of person i am actually. why do i always feel this kind of things. i feel sick of being hurt like this. this pain i kept inside really make me suffer lots. how i wish to tell and share with you guys about her.. sigh. i guess im too greedy.. thats why i always got punished. Thanks to my very dear bestfriend, which is you bloggg! for always letting me write about this devastated feelings inside. although its just alittle, but i feel relieved.. sighh. whats with my life? ;]