Khamis, 7 April 2011

begging you to go away, pains.

This heart never seems gonna heal.
This scars never seems gonna wound.
This pains never seems gonna stop.
This life never seems gonna smile.

Life, i wish you cpuld understand me alittle..
all i want is to be happy like everyone else.
leaving this and that behind.

i dont wanna want to be a sad person anymore.
i just couldnt bare to hold it alone.
please, im begging you to go away..

am i this pathetic much?

i hate this emotions.
why do it kept on hauting me?
why do it kept on pushing me?
why di it kept on hurting me?

couldnt it at least stopped for a while?
please.. im begging ypu.. please go away..
sighh..

True appreciation

They live in my heart, i breathe through their souls. without them l'd die with sorrow.. may my name will always be buried in their mind. Family that i wont ever get to buy with any golds and pearls.. the one whom always encouraged me to live stronger , better and longer.

She, a kind of women that no one can ever replaced. The one who carried me nine months before with alots of pain and obstackles which never i can ever pay back. The one who feed me with her hardworking all the years goes. The one who never ask me to reply her kind. The one who just want me to sucess and made her smile at the end. Thank you for always there for me. because you are the reasons i, still breathing, writting, walking, and living now. Mom :)

Him, the one who always waited and picked me up at school no matter how late i am. The one who used to carried me to bed when im sleeping at the living room alone. The one who always defended me infront of my mom. the one who always stay quiet but at some point he was so really worried. thank you for always been there for me, Dad :)

Them, the kind of them who always punched me. The one of them who always pulled my hair and stick bubblegum at it. The one who always bullied me whenever mom's not home. The ones who always pushed me up whenever im down. The ones who always scolded me whenever i do stupid thimgs. The ones who always persuaded me to go back home when mom's mad. Thanks for always me see life in better way and made me brave, sisters :)

Thank you for making me strong no matter how hard it is to face life. Thank you for making me smile onwards. Thank you for waiting me in the cold nor hot day. Thank you for listening. Thank you fo giving me birth. Thank you for the life im living now. i may not know how much your love to me. But one thing for sure i know. That if i gone oneday you'll be missing me.. for me, i can feel the love you has for me. Love that has no words to say and its been always live in my heart.. Thank you for everything.. its a true appreciation from the bottom of my heart for you guys. really.. thank you :)

I love you....